Sunday, November 16, 2014

To all the young girls who cut

This is my letter to all the young teenage girls who self-harm, maybe because they are bullied, maybe because they have a broken heart, because they have family issues, or maybe because they're simply different from the rest of their peers.
Your life is worth living. You must be a beautiful person to suffer that way and to be this sensitive. You are worthy of love, you deserve to be loved and taken care of. You deserve happiness, and it'll come to you if you work hard enough to stop those urges, I mean, the urges to self-harm.
Don't hurt yourself. If life is a curse to you, turn it into a blessing. If life is too harsh, make it sweeter. Talk to people, reach out for help. Write to me, if you feel lonely and need someone to comfort you. I'm here to help.

Self-harm is a monster. It grabs you and eats you alive, until nothing's left. Don't make it escalate by cutting deeper or hurting yourself more. Stop the urge, you can make it. You are in control. Cutting is not the right way to have control of your life.

Don't keep going down this dangerous road. People may not come back from it. It's a dead end. It leads you nowhere.

With love,
Joseph Nicola M.

Friday, November 14, 2014

still resisting the urges

Come on, I can do this! More than 1 month without cutting.

There is hope. Hope for everyone! Never give up!

Pdoc prescribed me a new med today but I didn't tell her about cutting. I only talked about psychotic symptoms I'm having and she prescribed me Abilify.

It's super hard, but I can resist a little bit more.

Friday, October 3, 2014

With every cut....

With every cut pain seems to go away. Seems, the key word is seems. It doesn't help It makes emotional pain go away for one moment, just one moment. With every drop of blood emotions flow out of the body and mind. That noise inside becomes an ice-cold silence. It will never help It helps you at the moment, it kills you in the long run. You may do it to solve one problem without realizing that you're only creating other problems. How will you hide the cuts? Will you tell someone? Will you be able to stop one day? Will it escalate quickly? Let me answer the last question: yes, it does escalate pretty quickly.

So, what are you waiting for? Don't take the razor, take my hand and we can go through this together.